Time to Catch Up

It was brought to my attention that I haven't posted in almost two weeks. Utterly unacceptable. My apologies, and I will try to not let it happen again :-)

I feel bad that I haven't posted in so long because I have recently returned from a monumental trip. Over the past weekend, I spent five days getting to know the city of Columbus, OH as well as getting acquainted with the new place I share with my soon-to-be husband. What an experience it was.

Besides the obvious furniture and electronics shopping, we did a lot of eating, sleeping, and drinking. These are all normal bonding experiences shared by people in various stages of the relationship lifespan. But what I've come to realize is that there are milestones, realms of consciousness that surface when you are further along in a relationship than when things are just starting out. I have different priorities and goals now that I am embarking on marriage. In the early stages of dating my fiancée, I was focused on partying constantly, getting to know the menial details of each other's life just to say "I know you". Now, it seems that I dwell on details in behavior, using them to deduce what lies ahead of me.

To some, I might be over thinking the situation. But to others, I might just be thorough. To each, I say challenge yourself. Take some time and look at your relationship. Consciously consider what things your mate does that make you hopeful for the future and what makes you a little uneasy. Depending on where you are in your relationship, the lists may be equally long. But DON'T DESPAIR! While I'm no licensed psychologist, I can say from experience that is it the Hopeful list that will have more bearing on your future (if you really want to be with that person, that is...).

As W-Day draws near, I feel myself becoming more mature day by day. I've been thinking about cutting my hair into a more adult style, changing my wardrobe to reflect a more professional me, and even trying out new make-up to control the perception people will have of me. In a little over six weeks (OH MY GOD!!) I will no longer be just a college student or just a graduate assistant. I will be a wife. And I'm still working on what exactly that means to me. Contrary to some advice that I've been getting, I expect that marriage will change me. It will change my outlook, my expectations, my responsibilities. *sigh* Yea, all of that.

This past weekend was only a glimpse of what I will have to look forward to (and put up with, lol) for the rest of my life. And, honestly, I'm ok with that.